RIP

Michael Jackson died June 25 2009. This was my favorite MJ...

Jon & Kate

We all know that reality television is something that has come around in approximately the past ten years. For the past few years, Jon & Kate Plus 8 has been one of my favorite shows. I felt like these two really had it nailed down. Today, they announced that they were splitting, something that doesn't surprise many. In fact, historically, the majority of families that have experienced reality television have seen marriages dissolve. It really makes me wonder what it is about human nature and money and fame that tears people apart.

If you've been asked, "What would you do with a million dollars", I bet one of the first things most people respond with is, "I'd buy this, and I'd buy that, Blah Blah Blah, but I'd be the same person I am today."

But, more likely than not, you would NOT be the same person you are today.

Is it the money? The fame? What is it that tears these people apart???

[As a sidenote, I think Jon & Kate are f'ing stupid. They are choosing to continue their reality show, instead of saving their marriage. That is so ass backwards that I can't help but think how incredibly selfish they are.]

I've Started the J-O-B hunt.

And I've only applied to three jobs, but that's all it takes to remember how insignificant job hunting can make you feel. Interviewing? Love it. It's getting the interview. GETTING THE INTERVIEW. How to effing get the interview. I can nail it once I'm there, but on paper? I don't dazzle.

And, this is me in the excited phase of job hunting. The optimistic stage.

It's going to be a long next few months.

Limbo

The other day, I was having a conversation with my friend Kristin about getting myself back into shape and into the gym. I was saying that, albeit it being rainy and sooo not summer weather yet, it soon would be. When that time came around, I wouldn't feel comfortable getting into a bathing suit like I have the past years. [I've put on about 10-12 lbs in the last year and half!] I was going on and on about it, and she looked and me like I was crazy and said

"But you're not fat!"

Which is true. I'm not fat.

The trouble with that is that it's very to lose inspiration to keep with it, because you think "I can eat just this one cookie -- it's not like I'm fat," but really, the truth is that I'm not comfortable with my body, so mentally that should put me in the same category as people that ARE overweight.

Instead, it's just lingers in this certain sort of 'limbo' of the dieting world. How frustrating is THAT!

Heidi/Spencer

In response to my friend Ellen's post, I want to get a few words out about Speidi. Just for the record.

I, too, am contributing to their mindless popularity by writing about them; however, unlike many others, I cannot stand to watch them for more than a few seconds. As soon as I hear words come out of Spencer's mouth, I am aghast. Cannot believe that people like him really exist.

I really, really, would like to get inside that boy's mind and know what the hell is going on in here?!

I am still forming my opinion of Jimmy Fallon. Help.

Cruise. One Month Later.

Or post pics.

So a little over a month ago, Jon and I went on our first vacation together. Let me start of by saying that I love my boyfriend, but this trip basically left quite a bit to be desired. And not in a 'you'll look back one day and think it was funny' type of way.

I feel bad saying that, because I know that it was this HUGE trip for us that cost a ton of money and time off of work, etc., and I actually do have a ton of great memories of the trip, its just that we had idealized about being able to spend so much time together and doing all these awesome things together, and then we just were picking fights with each other and getting annoyed with each other -- not what either of us expected. I don't know how to explain it, but it felt like for the first time since we'd met that we just weren't on it.

I'll keep the memories (the good and the bad) for myself, because there really are too many to explain. From our 'adventure' in Jamaica, and the goofy couple we sat with our first night, and the piano bar, and the 24 hr pizza bar, and meetings friends in the hottub to everything else. There is noone else I would have rather gone through it all with -- the good and the bad.

JACKPOT.

We bought a house!

It is the house that we originally wanted to buy. Jon had to go up alot from the price that he originally wanted, which was a little frustrating. But WE GOT IT! YAYYAYAYAYAYAYA!

I love it, and I am so beyond excited to begin this next chapter of my life.